What are my desires?
Last week we started off the year being reminded that we can never get enough of the Lord, but rather we should always want more and more. And this week Cally and Elizabeth have highlighted how only the Lord can truly know and fulfill our desires.
Recently I have been praying for clarity in what exactly God’s plan, and accordingly my desire, is. I am now halfway through law school, and I would guess that 50% of my classmates know what type of law they want to focus on upon graduating. I am not in that half. I have peace with where I am, and I am enjoying (mostly) the challenges and opportunities of law school. My husband is encouraging as we pray through different job options and ask for direction. But I still get jealous of other students who know exactly what they want to do and where and how, etc. I wish I knew exactly what to do right now!
But selfish wishing is not synonymous with desiring my Father. The Lord will open and close doors in his perfect timing. I know that as long as I seek Him first, always, then he will stir in me an undeniable passion and excitement for a specific area of law or a location or ________ (my creativity is pathetically limited in comparison with God’s providence and love). As I try to be both patient in His plan and proactive in searching for jobs, God continues to be present and move in ways I’m not aware.
In fact, I do know exactly what to do right now:
* Seek first his kingdom (Matthew 6:33)
* Rejoice always. Pray continually. Give thanks in all circumstances. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
* Taste and see that the Lord is good. (Psalm 34:8)
My desire should always be for the Lord, and he will work out the details.