Since I began blogging five days a week for Lent this year, God continues to open my eyes to His faithfulness in big ways and small ways.
One of the things I never want is to allow my desire to blog for the sake of blogging overshadow my desire to love the Lord more each day and encourage others to do the same.
Over the last month, there have been days I wake up excited because I have a specific message on my heart I’m eager to share. Other times, I’m tired and worn out and think, “God, I’ve got nothing. I can’t do this.”
The funny thing is, it’s usually when I wake up with nothing, that God pulls through the most, because it has to be Him every step of the way. On my own I will always have nothing.
Anyways, this week I’ve been particularly exhausted. This past weekend was extremely renewing on some levels, but emotionally, physically, and spiritually exhausting on others.
Driving home from several meetings last night, I prayed, “God I’m so tired. I can’t even think in complete sentences. How can I possibly wake up and write another post for tomorrow? I need you.”
I came home and checked my e-mail and saw an e-mail from Meg entitled “my utmost” that said, “Today’s devo was perfect for the “dwelling” topic: in order to live out the vision and the passion we must abide in Him daily.
I love the ways God works! God used Meg to encourage me and without even knowing, she sent me a message that I needed in that moment. For me, yesterday was exactly the kind of day described above—cold, rainy, ordinary, and mundane. One that can easily wear you out and quench your desire.
Why is it so easy to let our desire for God fade? I don’t want a heart that easily loses it’s passion. I don’t want the ordinary and mundane to wear me out and drag me down.
Rather, I want a heart that yearns for God more today than yesterday. I want to experience the abundance that Christ has come to offer us not just some days, but ALL days. I want a heart that burns for God not just on the fun and exciting days, but on the dreary and ordinary days.
I want to faithfully abide in Christ and believe that no matter what kind of day it is, it’s only when I am abiding in Him that I am truly living.