|5 weeks pregnant…oh, how time flies!|
Currently, we are in a season of waiting. Not sure about you, but for me, I feel like my entire twenties have been a season of waiting. I can’t figure out if that’s specific to your twenties, or just life in general, but when I get to my thirties, I’ll let you know.
This week, we are eagerly and anxiously awaiting the arrival of our new baby–just 1.5 weeks to go! And as excited as we are about the new addition to our family–one that we prayed for and see as a precious gift from God–I’ll be honest, another part of me is terrified.
For a girl who doesn’t like change, part of me is scared of what’s to come and anxious about all the unknowns. I find myself torn between wanting him to come tomorrow so I can kiss him, hold him, and rock him; and wanting him to wait a few more weeks, so I can keep working and delay maternity leave, enjoy my married life as a family of 2, get a pedicure, schedule a few more lunch/coffee dates, and embrace the final days of this season before moving into the parenting phase.
In addition to preparing for baby, B and I are also trying to enjoy our “final days” before the big change–we’ve been going to movies (I don’t think my sister has seen a movie in the theater since her first child arrived 3.5 years ago), enjoying “couch time” in our pajamas until 12 on the weekends, savoring date nights, taking advantage of quality time with friends, and enjoying spontaneous mini-adventures just because we can. On Saturday night, we drove 45 minutes into the country for Thai food because after hearing about it, we were convinced it would be “the best Thai food of our lives.” For the record, the reviews were right; we might as well have been in Thailand it was so delicious, and there were no feeding or sleep schedules to hold us back!
As I’ve been praying through the host of emotions I’m experiencing right now (joy, excitement, anticipation, anxiety, and fear) I am so comforted by one Truth that has carried me through my twenties–no matter how much our lives may change, evolve, rattle, and shake, there is one Constant that does not change.
In the midst of each and every transition, Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
Once I give birth, my season will change for the rest of my life, but my Jesus will not. His truth, His promises, and His faithful presence will remain. No matter what life stage we’re entering into, we can always cling to, rely on, and embrace the faithful loving presence of our God. His love for us is everlasting, He will never leave us, and He is more than willing and able to equip us with everything we need each and every day. Cling tightly to Him…He is Life.
Therefore you are not consumed.