He knows, even when we don’t

Nearly a year ago, I wrote a post about things not going the way you plan them.  At that time, the job working for a women’s talk show I was convinced I would have forever, was suddenly no longer an option.  The show was abruptly canceled.  Even now, there is a part of me that feels a sense of loss over the show.  But looking back on the year, I continue to see that God’s ways are always higher than mine, even when I don’t understand what He’s doing.

One of the women that I knew I would miss terribly was one of the hosts, Carolyn Castleberry.  For the past five years, she has been a mentor, an encourager, and a faithful supporter to me.  The thought of not being able to work with her broke my heart.

Throughout the entire process, Carolyn was faithful to seek out God’s best for her life and encourage me along the way.  Instead of sulking in the corner, she made herself available and began putting her God given dreams and talents into action.  She prayed, trusted, and was willing to take risks when God began giving her a little push. 

For the past few months, Carolyn has been working tirelessly to put together a website that empowers women through faith-based financial solutions.  A few weeks ago, her website www.womensavemoney.com was launched.  On it you can find money saving tips, career advice, investing insights, and how to relate our faith and our finances.  You’ll also find a video of my sister Cally and her work with Itsera.

Carolyn has also asked me to put together some stories for her.  To me, that is a small way I see God answering my prayers and giving me the desire of my heart.  I can still work with Carolyn on various projects, and it’s also a great outlet for me to do some things I’ve missed doing since the show was canceled.  

I was even able to shoot a little video on my laptop regarding some things I had learned in the midst of our move and it’s featured this week.  

Seeing Carolyn’s faithfulness throughout this past year has been so encouraging.  Looking back, I continue to see how even though things aren’t necessarily how I would have planned them, God is still in every single detail and He knows what He’s doing even when we don’t.

I know we’ve heard the verse in Jeremiah 29 over and over again about how God knows the plans He has for us.  Something I’m continuing to learn is that He doesn’t say we will always know, but He says, “I know.”  In my life there continues to be so much uncertainty and inconsistency, but in the midst of that, God continues to be near.  I am slowly learning to trust and believe that even though I don’t have all the answers, He knows and He has a plan.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you,”  
Jeremiah 29:11-13