Last night, I was in a bit of a funk. I was staying at my parent’s house for work, but they were out of town, so I found myself all alone.
I was chopping up some brussels sprouts in the kitchen for dinner, when all of a sudden, Michael Buble’s “Home” came on my Pandora station (which, in my opinion, does NOT belong on my Lady Antebellum station). All of a sudden, I had tears in my eyes, as I thought about how I’d like to be pretty much anywhere but here—in my swivel rocker in Charlottesville, with my sweet husband, dog and Laura Ashley throw; at my parent’s house WITH my parents and siblings; in DC with two of my best friends that I had said goodbye to the day before, on a beach with a good book sipping a margarita…I was feeling mopey and alone.
The thing is, usually I enjoy a night to myself; I find them to be very therapeutic, but for some reason, last night was not one of those nights.
But even in my loneliness, I still had this confidence that even though I felt alone, I most certainly was not alone. No matter where we go, God’s presence and His faithfulness goes with us and before us. I’ve seen Him go with me to camp as a little girl when I was scared to leave my parents, to the grounds of UVA when I watched my parents pull away and I thought, “now what?”, into the jungle of Sri Lanka (another story for another day), and to DC as this anxious and scared little 22-year-old entered the “real world.”
What a gift that no matter where we are and how alone we feel, we are never truly alone!
After dinner, I hopped in the car to go to say goodbye to a dear friend who is moving away (another reason I was a bit mopey) and on my Christian radio station Amy Grant’s song, “Carry You” came on. A song that I completely overplayed in college on my most emotional, lonely, saddest days.
Lay down your burden
I will carry you
I will carry you
My child, My child
The perfect song for my weary heart to be fully aware that even though I felt lonely, I was not alone. I have a God who loves me, who goes with me, and who carries me. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!
Praise God our savior! For each day he carries us in his arms.
Psalm 68:19 (NLT)
Do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)