Yes, this lovely picture is my near-empty living room. After two very full years in D.C., I said goodbye last night to a most beloved and supportive roommate- a near security blanket through two years of grad school (who also provided 99% of the living room furniture!). After she left, I faced the moment I’d feared for the past month: solitude. Yet, as I sat in the red chair- just sat- I was still for what felt like the first time in two years. And, ironically, God’s peace began to flood my heart in a way that only he can… and the words of Psalm 46:10 were in my mind.
There’s no doubt of this fact: Change, whether seemingly good or bad, is always a bit of a challenge. We spend much of our lives thinking and planning for the “next step”… yet, sometimes we don’t know what the next step is. And you know what? As much as we may try (and believe me I have TRIED), we can’t always predict what’s coming. Tonight, as I began to reflect over the joys and tribulations of the past two years one thing was certain: Through it all, God has provided. God is certain. God has proven himself. And, above all, He keeps his promise:
Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you… So, we say with confidence,’The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid’…”
Hebrews 13: 5-6
Friends, people may come and go, but we are never alone. When our hearts are in the right place, there’s room for God to swoop in and take us to the next level. Tonight, my peace did not come from my usual seeking, planning, anticipating, running… My peace came from passively being in the presence of the Lord. Do I know what tomorrow brings? NO. Is it a little scary? YES. But I do know the truth:
“In his heart, a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.”
GOD knows where he’s taking us, and in that plan we can be confident. So for today, just for a moment, be still. Be still, and know that He is God. Block out the worries, block out the plans, and rest in the peace of knowing that God is a provider.And in the knowledge of His peace, be joyous.
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power,and of love, and of a sound mind.”
2 Timothy 1:7
Lord, today, like everyday, please help me to be still and acknowledge that you are God. You have a plan for me, and you are all-knowing. Help me to clear my mind and rejoice in the peace of knowing that even when I do not know, you are guiding my steps. Amen.